The-so-not-complicated-life :)

As a teenager, I never felt very good about myself. Being an a 16 year old teenager with the height of 5’3 and having an average IQ, I never considered myself ‘good enough’ to be friends with those who are seen more intelligent and more athletic than I am. Teachers keep putting their hopes too high on me but I would usually let them down. It’s not that I’m over-confident but I’m NOT really sure about my ability. Teachers keep praising me for having a very good command in English language but actually I’m STILL not sure about my ability. Heck, this insecurity is killing me INSIDE. I’m not exactly sure when, where or how my sense of low self-esteem is growing inside me. I needed the reassurance of others to comfort me or to make me feel good about myself. Sometimes, I just flashed those fake smiles. But, inside, I’m actually hurting and crying. I mean, no one knows right whether I’m sad or happy. Only god knows. Being a teenager meant NEVER feeling good enough and it is full with up-side down in life. believe me :)

I don’t socialize a lot like other teenagers do as I was still under the stern eyes of my parents. And I feel good about it. I mean, I had nothing to lose for right? Prosperity, friends (NO OFFENSE!) and love can come and out but, family was the only thing we have in this forever life right? But having a perfect family, my very-very best friends, and my lovely cousins beside me were all-round-bliss

But well, I just love my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!